My weekend in pictures

Shanna and Deanna came out to spend the weekend with us, despite Shanna's fragile condition. Poor girl threw up more times than I think I have in my life! On Saturday night we went to the Sandwich Fair with Deanna, Shanna, Josh & Nicole. It was a blast and of course Deanna was here usual cute self.


On Sunday, we got up and played with Deanna for a few hours before church ( I love having time in the morning to just lounge!) I was sitting in the living room talking to Shanna and I hear Deanna in the kitchen going " Auntie, I going to make you breakfast." So I just thought aww ain't that cute she is going to pretend. WRONG- I walk into the kitchen to find 4 pieces of bread in the toaster! Then she goes into "her" room and says she is getting dressed- She comes out in her skirt and Shanna's bra!!!! I think that was the best laugh I have ever had. My little girl is growing up so fast and she says the darndest but cuttest things! Enjoy the pics.

Just a preview

Here are a few house pictures of our living room and dining room. There will be more to come- I just have to find the time to take them of the rooms that are now unpacked and put away.

Letting go to become a better me

I must apologize for the negativety in my last blog entry. Life sure has taken the toll on us the last 6 months and I have managed to let it get the best of me. Today as I was driving home from my meeting at work, I felt a feeling of peace come over me. This was the first time in the last year that I had felt so amazing. I wanted to smile and call and talk to everyone I knew just to see how their day was going. I have decided to let go of everything that I had been holding onto that was making me a negative person. I just thought to myself that this isn't the type of person I am nor want to be. I am a happy kind and generous person. I needed to let go of the person I had become for the last few months and accept the fact that there are just things out my control that I can't change. This life is way to short to get down and depressed about the things that you can't have. Yes, I am crushed at the fact that Dennis and I won't be able to have children of our own or the fact that I have felt like I don't have any friends, feeling like I was left out of everything because I couldn't connect with others that had children and for a while I was looking at the negative instead of the positive. For example- I will never have to get fat, I don't have to sacrife my boobs! I will never have morning sickness, I will never have swollen feet. I will never have to go through all of those dr. visits where they poke you with needles and of course best of all I will never have to go through the pain of labor! But we are able to adopt of child that we can give just as much love to.

Through this whole ordeal, I am thankful for all of the things I do have like a loving husband and a caring family and a Heavenly Father that makes me realize that there is more to life that what I have been looking at.

So here goes.... I am letting go of everything mentioned and unmentioned that I have let hurt me.....

September... In like a lion

Well I don't know where to begin as I sit here at 10:30 tonight. Today has been an emotional rollar coaster. First, I wake up to find an email from my ex- sister in law that she is 3 months pregnant and has decided to move in with her boyfriend. I went to a friends baby shower this morning. Then, I try to do stuff around the house and forget what I am trying to do or what I am trying to find. I literally got up to grab something, turned around and forgot what I was getting. YesturdayI started to look for a pair of work pants that I bought on Wednesday and couldn't seem to find them. As I was talking to Dennis to see if he has seen the American Eagle bag- he makes the coment- "well did it every make it to the car?' Well....yeah I think so. And then as we leave to go run errands I have this thought.... I don't think I walked out of New York and Company with the American Eagle bag??? So I call NY&C and sure enough, they have my bag sitting in their back closet waiting for the idiot that left it there to claim it! Then every store we went to there were pregnant women everywhere I turned... not joking! And to put the icing on the cake for the day, Nicole my best friend calls to tell us to come over they have to show us something. Dennis is convinced that they got a dog.... NOPE. Nicole announces to us that she is 8 weeks pregnant. Did I do something wrong to deserve this punishment?!! So as I sit here balling my eyes out, I am trying to make sense of everything. The hardest part is that Family is such a cornerstone of our religon, we were sealed in the temple and I have such a strong love for children that this is really killing me right now. My biggest fear is that it is going to make us fall away from the church a bit. How do you maintain such a solid testimony of family when you can't even have one? Not to mention the fact that we are the only couple in our new ward that doesn't have kids and if someone asks me one more time when we are going to have kids- I swear I am going to punch them.

Where has my August gone!

So we are all moved in thanks to some great friends at our old ward willing to help out at the last minute and our friends at our new yard- I can't believe like 10 people showed up despite the nasty rain! I should be unpacking some boxes or doing laundry but I thought I would post an update and let everyone know that we are still alive just very busy. Luckily, my sister and her boyfriend have been here for the last week and go home on Friday. My sisters boyfriend was so helpful today. I came home from my first day of work to a clean kitchen and dinner waiting for me! Oh this is the life, I think I am going to make them stay! The first day of work went well. I promise to write more later and posts some pics of the house- right now I am ready to go spend some time with my husband and get ready to crash for the night!

Calming down....yeah..right!

Here we are the 9th of August and things are starting to settle down. Ok, not really thats just my way to calm down. My last day at Pointe is tomorrow and we leave for my parents house. I kind of don't want to go- I would rather sit down at home for a moment and be there for more than 5 minutes BUT my mother is in need of some help in the midst of her crisis (what else is new, I think this is crisis # 101)! For those who don't know (I think that included everone), my father has been sitting in jail for a little over three weeks now. Why? one would ask? Well let's just say it's another chapter in the "My family is so screwed up" book. He was dealing drugs, a.ka. pills, whatever you want to call them for my brother in law. Pretty much my dad went down for it and now he is kind of screwed and so is my mom. Long story made short- my mother has always relied on my grandmother to take care of her and her problems- hence the reason why she is moving out of the house that my grandmother is paying for and back in with my grandparents for like the umteenth time! Yes there are some unresolved issues from my childhood- some of which I am trying to let go, I really am but everytime I start to think my parents have changed- something else happens! Don't get me wrong I LOVE my parents but my bigges fear is that after my grandmother is no longer on this earth to take care of them I am going to be next in line. Now you have to understand, I don't mind helping people out, I actually feel bad for saying no at all BUT my mom will suck the life right out of ya. I'm just afraid that this gigantic burden will be put on me and I am going to have to say no- and feel bad about it but it will have to be done.
So for now, all I can do is offer a shoulder to cry on and an ear to listen.

Sweet Home Chicago!

Wow! What a day. We were able to get part pf Monday off and head down to the city to meet up with Ben & Diane. Let me just tell you- 2 days later and my legs still hurt! We went to the Planetarium, Shedd Aquarium, took a water taxi to Navy Pier, Millenium Park, Ed Debevics and Buckingham Fountain. Dinner at Ed's wasn't that great and our waiter wasn't very nice at all- the food was equivalent to Dennys restaurant. We ate some much thought that we decided to walk from Ed's to our car which was at the Planetarium- just a note- I mapquested those 2 locations and we walked over 3.5 miles!!!! Feel the burn. Over all it was a great and exhausting day.

I have an interview!!!!

After waiting and waiting, I finally got a call earlier this week. I have an interview on August 2nd for a kindergarten teacher at Kensington School in Naperville!!!!!! I am so excited!!

August 16th

Today we got to go an actually walk through our new house that is almost finished!! We also got our closing date- August 16th, which means move in date will probably be August 18th. I am so excited- I felt like I couldn't start packing because it seemed so far away but now I have less than a month- so guess what I am doing to night..... packing of course. Here are a few pics from our trip out today.

R&R- that's rest and relaxation...

Don't ask
Inside joke amongst our group of friends
Just the girls
The Group
SCRAMBLER
BFF's Forever!!
Ashley swears she was born gangsta!
Just Us

Wow! What a weekend. Saturday after a long day at work we ended up at Joe's girlfriend Andrea's for his grad party/send off to the Marines- its still scarey knowing that he is old enough to do so! We hung out with our friends Josh & Nicole and a few people from Church- oh what fuuny pictures we have!

We decided to take a break from life on Sunday. Yes I know we should have been at church BUT with the events that took place this last week- we NEEDED to get away from everything and have some good ole' fashion F-U-N!! We headed off to 6 Flags Great America at 9a.m with Josh, Nicole & Megan. I guess everyone else had the same idea in mind for the day because it was packed. The waterpark was AWESOME!! They have this slide called the tornado- definelty #1 on my list. It shoots you straight down this dark tube at 45mph and whips you ip the side back and forth (at about 4-5 stories high until finally you come out of the end into the pool- sorry I didn't get a picture but they have one on the sight. The wave pool was awesome followed by the "bowl" slide- which is like a toilet bowl- you go round and round until you go through the hole at the end. And last but not least- the lazy river. We had fun grabbing each other to try to direct their tube in the path of waterfalls and spraying jets. At about 5- we ventured out into the park to ride some rides. Nicole and Megan hit up the Raging Bull- an absolutely scarey lookinf rollar coaster, while Josh, Dennis and I opted for the Chubasco- spinning tea cups. Dennis got the thing spinning so fast it felt like we were upside down. Of course we couldn't leave without going on the scrambler- which in my opinion was very weak compared to the one Nicole and I rode last summer in Lake Geneva that had my face plastered to her arm 3 feet up in the air! On the drive home we swung by the temple to show our non LDS friends where we got married and talked about the importance of it- see we had a missionary moment that counts doesn't it.

07-07-07

Pictures- Top- bottom: The 3 Stooges: Amy, Tara & Joe: Bailey & Tara: Tara modeling the pretty centerpieces grandma made for the tables- aren't the purdy!!

07-07-07- I guess you can say it was a lucky day. Dennis' cousin Cherlynn and Scott got married in Yorkville- it turned out to me an all day event. The catholic ceremony was very interesting from an LDS perspective. Cherlynn forgot her flowers, so she walked down teh isle without them and then Aunt Amy went and got

them for her. We had 3 hours between the ceremony and the reception so we took mom and Vic to see our new house- it was nice to walk through it once again. We then went over to Uncle Dales and hung out with David, Amy and Grandma. We then headed over to Ralphs Place in Bristol where we had a buffet dinner and watch Beta fights. When you get Dennis and his 2 brothers and their cousin David together you get the 3 stooges. They decided to combin

e the Betas from the centerpieces into one bowl and watch them fight. It was pretty mean if you ask me yet funny at the same time. When Betas fight, they lock lips and just sit there- hmmm, interesting way to fight I guess?? Anywho after the reception we stopped by Josh's hous

e and shot off some major earth shaking fireworks- that was an understatment. By 12a.m that night- I was ready to crash!

I'm up for the Challenge...

So I got to thinking today about something I said during Bunco. We were talking about reading during 1 round and I flat out said I hate to read. Let me make some clarifications and try to save my reputation as a great teacher. I like to read, I just get tired everytime I pick up a book and my eyes start to hurt. I have had this problem for a few years now and I have just been putting off reading or going to an optomoligist. So, my challenege, and I have chosen to accept it, is to make an appointment with the optomoligist and read alteast 2 books before I go back to school this fall. One of those books being, The Five People You Meet in Heaven. The other book is Positive Discipline in the Classroom. So, I have a little over 6 weeks to accomplish this goal. I better get going.......

Happy 4th of July. What a busy day! I seem to do this to myself everytime I get a day off, I like to play catch up instead of rest. Not only did I wake up early to tutor instead of sleep in but I attempted to start to clean my disqusting house and I didn't finish. Halfway through cleaning Dennis and I decided to go get something to eat and then we decided to go to Lowes to look at washers and dryers and then the next thing you know it was time for our friends Josh and Nicole to come over. We went for a swim, grilled some burgers and brats and then headed off to Batavia to see the fireworks! It is making me exhausted to sit here and write all this out. I guess next time I get a day off I will sit and do nothing because I could really us a day like that!!

Sold!

This is a picture of what our house looks like as of Saturday. That's our door up by Dennis' head and our house extends over the garage where my car is parked- that would be our neighbors garage.!

So it has been about a week since we have bought our new home in Yorkville, so I thought I would post some pictures of our 3 bedroom, 2 bath, 2 car garage piece of this country! It is located in the Autumn Creek subdivision off of Rt 34, just 2 minutes from Rt. 47. It is in the process of being built so I will start off by posting the pictures of what the house looks like at this point and then I will post pictures of the model so you can get an idea of what ours will look like- the only difference between the model and ours will be the vaulted ceiling in the master bedroom :( but hey we get cathedrial ceilings in the living room! Enjoy the pics!

Let the house hunting begin!!!

Montgomery

North Aurora

We took our second round of house hunting this past Tuesday and fell in love with 2 different houses. The one in Montgomery that I love is 4 years new, has 3 bedroom, 2.5 bathrooms, a family room, dining room, full size basement, 2 car garage, sitting room, nice bright kitchen, nice professionally landscaped yard, a nice deck with a 5 person hot tub!!!! It is gorgeous- cute paint colors- it totally screams my name.... the downside is that it has a homeowners association fee and an SSA fee which brings the monthly payments just for those 2 without the mortgage to $200/month!!!

The one that we found in North Aurora is cute and has alot of potential but it does need some updating. I am posting a picture of it for those who would like to see it. If you want to go on Realtor.com, the mls# to type in is 06548637. There are a few other houses that we are going to look at this weekend- mostly in Batavia, Geneva and a few in Montgomery. We will keep you posted on what our decision is don't worry. Until then just sit back and enjoy the ride!

Sunday Night Scrabble Fun

We went to the Bodells this past Sunday night to play some scrabble. We ended up having a TON of fun- I think by the time we left at 10:30 my stomach hurt so bad from laughing I felt like I got punched. We really had a great time.

Bye Bye Allan's

So Monday was my last day of working at the school so I was looking forward to sleeping in. However, my good friends, Sarah, Matt and Eli Allan are moving to Michigan so I decided to go have breakfast with them thinking that I could just sleep in on Wednesday (yeah I didn't get to do that). I can't believe how big Eli has gotten since I sat for him last summer- he's a little man! He has a full head of blonde hair and is so adorable. It took him a minute to remember me but once he did, he wouldn't let me put him down. It was really a great visit and I am going to miss them but they are only 3 hours away so I can go visit!! I took some pictures before I left, Eli is so photogenic- he went crazy for the camera.

It's hump day!

Yea- it's Wednesday!!!! For all those who have been checking the blog here's what's new

• I went to the 8-5 shift at the office- it makes the day go by a lot quicker
• I am set up to tutor 4 students this summer, ranging from 2nd- 4th grade with another mother wanting my help with her 4 year old autisitc son- hmm, I don't think I will be able to squeeze that one in but I will keep her number for the fall. I think I should have just done tutoring this summer- it pays pretty good!
• I am supposed to go back to the school I student taught at to aide for the next school year and they even gave me a $5 raise- which was so deserved. They are holding it for me but I am still hoping for a teaching spot!!!
• House hunting starts next week!! We have about 5 houses that we are interested in seeing and there are even a few in St. Charles and Batavia!!

Memorial Day Weekend

We headed out at 6p.m to my grandparents house in Norris City, IL. We arrived alittle before 12a.m. I decided to be a nice wife and start off the trip while Dennis took a nappy nap. I ended up driving until 10. This is un heard of with me, I can't drive in the dark to save my life but I guess the coutesy car we had gave me the power to do so! You see, my ABS sensor went out in the civic so it has been hanging out at Honda for the last week while I have been driving a 2007 Accord- in which Dennis and I LOVE and will be buying once we get our house. Anyway back to the weekend.....
Saturday we had a nice BBQ in honor of Tonya's graduation. We played some catch in the backyard and picked veggies from grandpa's gigantic garden. We made our trip to walmart- a must when you come down to visit (it's the only chain store for hours!) We got some flowers to take to great grandma Ester's grave on Sunday and some gigantic 72oz waterbottles!

Sunday we spent with my family in ElDorado. We went out to lunch with my sister and her boyfriend and then headed to payless for some new flip flops- thanks mom! We then went to visit g'ma Meme at work and headed back to spend some time with the family before we headed home. Oh yeah, Dennis picked up a HUGE painted turtle on the way to my parents. He put it in on the back floor of the Accord and headed off. We did return it to his home at the end of the day.

After saying our good byes- we headed to Fairfield to grandma Ester's grave site.
I took some pretty flowers with me. I have been telling myself for 2 years now that when I go down I am going to make the 45 minute drive north to visit her gravesite, since I hadn't been there since her funeral in 2005. It was a very emotional time for me. She passed away unexpectedly from pneomonia in Jan 2005- in the midst of me living my life the way I didn't want to- in utter confusion. I didn't get to say goodbye to her- that was the hard part. This was the first time in my life that someone so close to me had passed and I didn't get to say goodbye.
Dennis encouraged me to spend a few moments alone talking with her- so I heeded the council of my husband and knelt down to chat with her. Lesson of the day- bring tissues with next time. As the tears poured out of my eyes- I felt at peace that she knew that I was living my life the way I was supposed to and forgave me for not being such a great grand daughter at the time.
As the tears dried up we headed home and arrived in St. Charles by 9:30. WOW, what a weekend. I was glad we got to make the trip.

Update

Here is a tiny update of what's going on in our lives....

I have been placed in an elementary school for next year- Kindergarten! This is what I have to fall back on if I don't get a teaching position. (pray for me)

Dennis is going back to teching- the sales thing just isn't working for him- besides he LOVES servicing houses and is starting to miss it.

We have started the treck of looking for a house- so far there are alot of cute ones we like and can afford but nothing in the ward. Hmmm?? Is this God's way of telling us he needs us somewhere else?

We are making our annual visit to my parents house this weekend for my little sisters graduation from highschool. This should be an interesting trip- I haven't seen my family since Thanksgiving and I have a new brother in law.

We got a new Bishop this past Sunday, Bishop Dana Koch.